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2009-09-14T02:53:00.000-07:00

So Many things has happen for the past few weeks! :) Exciting week of short holidays, but accomplished alot. :) Had a great day with the C-zoners at sentosa. And the games masters and food ics really did a great job! :) Cindy and tingting planned the games and they were awesome, although it was their first time, they did it anyway and with such a great attitude :) Also not forgetting pinche and daniel khew who prepared the food, that taste really awesome!! Watch sunset together and really had lots of fun together, there is nowhere to be than to have a great day at sentosa with the C-zoners!!!
Really glad to see people begin to rise up and take ownership if the House. And seeing people having such a strong sense of belonging is so so so exciting!!

Came to a revelation while praying too. Faith is like glitters from heaven that can make one person shine for God. Having faith is makes you as shiny as glitter that are on your body, shining brightly. Really excited for C-zone! gonna really grow czone and cg. Believing in God for growth. What you confess determines the end result. And i chose to confess what i set out to do. And that is growth :)
Really believe that C2 will grow to 20 in the next 80days and czone to 75.

Nothing is impossible because our God is a BIG God that sees things through the eyes of FAITH :)

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20, 75, 120.

2009-09-05T10:08:00.001-07:00

Havnt been posting for quite a while.. Lots of things has been happening the last few week. :) I just love my life, Love everything that is in my life, God, my pastor, my leaders, my church and my friends and family! :)

This few week really got inspired by great men and women of God, Pastor Phil, Pastor How, Pastor Lia and My PASTOR!!! :) Sermons really spoke to me... Lifting my faith to a higher level. Went for Heart of God church's 10th anniversary, seeing how much they have grown from 5 to 1800+ really inspired me. I believe that they day when our church have our 10th year anniversary, we will grow to that number or even more. Really wanna see church being lifted up to a higer level and growing church with pastor and my leaders. :)

Now, focusing on growth!!! Wanna grow C2 to 20 strong members and disciples that will really love dwelling in the presence of God. Can't wait to see people in the cell group begin to rise up. I really think that growing the cell group is so possible. Don't wanna be just satisfied with having a CG of 15. But i want more. Expand and enlarge, i dun wanna be satisfied. My CG is too small, i want it bigger!! HAving faith to believe that God will really grow C2. And also Grow the entire church!!

Imaging how will church be when we grow to 120, 200, 500 and eventually reach 1000. It's gonna be so awesome, seeing leaders rise up and excited to see younger people being used by God. :) Excited for the new place as well!!! We are gonna move soon! The new place is gonna be so awesome as well.

Thats all for now.. :)

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*Anointing from God
*Loving others

2009-07-07T04:39:00.000-07:00

havnt been posting for quite a long time. haha. Just had a week of exams last week. and i got back my maths and chem paper. Maths i go an A! but chem got E! its ok. i did my best and im just glad that i passed both subjects. Our school did quite bad for chem paper i think. only 25% of the cohoot passed and only 7 As! and the highest was actually from our class. -_- He got a total of 90%!!!

Anyway, had a great weekend and youth day holidays! its so great to see the newer batch of future core rising up and taking responsibility of building church. :) Sat Service was really amazing and the presence of God was super strong. I really believe that in the following weeks, the presence of God is just gonna get stronger and stronger. :) we really need to come to every service with a heart of expectation, expecting God to touch us during every service. Because when we come to service or come to God with a heart of expectation, it is having faith in God and whenever there is faith, God will always be able to move in a powerful way. :)

C-zone service was amazing during sunday as well. I took service run and it was my very first time. Really nervous at the beginning but i decided to trust God in whatever i do. :) It was also my first time giving offering and announcement on stage. although i was nervous at the start, but it wasnt that scary after all! :) People like daniel khew, shelley, chantel and rainee were really so serving. Wei en also did a great job at projection while ray was doing testimony! Clement and ray also did really well leading the games! Ray's testimony was powerful too!!! most of all, Chenxi also preached really well! really inspired by her. :) Jason was really awesome leading worship too! Rebecca also helped alot and was super sharp during service run!!! Kahliang also helped to build atmosphere so well although he was not feeling well!!! Really amazed by the entire c-zone!! they are really the most amazing people and i have the most amazing leaders!

Monday had home cell leadership training(hcl) with Pastor and really learnt alot from her! I believe that the next 12 weeks will be really amazing and i really wish to draw as much from pastor as possible. :)

Cant wait for service at HOGC with Dr. A.R. Bernard this coming fri and sun! its really gonna be so powerful with this great man of God and you guys got to be there for it!!! cant miss out this great man of god ya?! haha.

Also, just cant wait for sat service too!!! its really gonna be super annoited and amazing service! I love God, i love my pastor, i love my leaders, i love my church, i love my team! God has blessed me with so many things in my life that i can never thank Him enough. :)

2009-06-25T10:32:00.000-07:00

Today was really awesome!!! CG with Pastor was really powerful! The presence of God was there, and really learnt alot from Pastor, about being bold and how we must really respond fast to our leaders. :) Pastor prophesized over us today during CG and said that i will be a leader of 12!! I really believed that whatever that was prophesized by Pastor will come true! I do not just want team of 12 people but i want 12 strong disciples who are hungry for more of God in their lives and being really servant-hearted and also being Faith-filled! :)

Just finished my QT and God really spoke to me a rhema that strucked me! "Faith is not believing that God can do things for us, nor is it believing that God will do great things for us or do the things that we want for us, but it is believing that God will USE US to do great things!!!" I really want to be the farmer of God, i want God to use me to be the one who is gonna go to the harvest field to harvest all the good fruits. I want to be the one that when God asks for volunteer, I will be the one that raise up my hands and that He will chose me to do great things for Him! :)

Anyway, Just wanna wish TINGTING a really "HAPPY BIRTHDAY"! Ting ting, you are really a great leader and have a great birthday! :)

2009-06-20T23:56:00.000-07:00

Service was really great yesterday! Really learnt a lot from Pastor, about having a great attitude. We may have a busy week and not really able to do our QT and really pray alot, but if our attitude was right before God, no matter what we do, God's presence will always be there with us. It hit me such that i really got to have a great attitude in whatever i do and attitude is the foundation for us to go into the presence of God. So i really wanna have a great attitude from now on. i really want myself to always be able have a serving attitude and always serving with a great attitude!

Was listening to Pastor Kong's sermon today about Andrew, a great servant in the bible. It really inspires me to serve more in church! Pastor Kong also says that Pastor Cho always tells the younger Pastors this - "Make your vision so big that unless God acts on it, it will never happen." When i heard this, i was like "WOW!" Really wanna learn more from my Pastor and my leaders because i know that there is always a lot of things for me that I have yet to learn from Pastor and the leaders. :)

Food for thought: Learning the blessings of becoming an invisible servant :)

2009-06-19T02:39:00.000-07:00

Today went to woodlands to study with kahliang. :) Its really great to talk about people and so encouraged to see people rise up. And i'm amazed by clement! he is bringing a total of four sec 1s for service! am praying hard for them to get touched by God and get saved! I believe that this is the season where we are really gonna grow and new leaders are gonna rise up and become a strong pillar in the House of God! Just cant stop thinking about how awesome it is. Really expecting a strong 80 when we move to our new place! I'm really having Faith and realling believing that God WILL grow our church!! Also, speaking the vision to myself daily and imagining it everyday during my QT! Imagination gives us the power of faith because when we begin to see the things through our imagination, it really ups the level of faith we have to see things happen. And when we have faith and trust that God will, our vision and dreams will definately come to pass! This season is the harvest season for us and i really want to be the labourer if God, to grow the church together with my Pastor and leaders! GROWTH and Vision keeps us going!!
10. 55. 80. :) YES WE CAN! :)

2009-06-18T06:32:00.000-07:00

This few weeks have been phenominal! God is really doing something great in our church. Seeing people rise up and taking up the ownership of building church and building God a great house is really amazing!! Its less than weeks to our goal of a strong 80! i really believe that God will really make things possible. Because we serve a BIG God and He makes all things possible! I am really believing that God will make it possible! Our new place is really gonna be awesome!It will definately be ours! Imagining how it will be like to be in our new place, a new audi, a new stage, new instruments, new people and even new leaders rising up!
FAITH is the key that unlocks all the doors of impossibilities! So i just want to have faith in whatever things that i do. As long as i have faith, all things are possible! - 10...55...80... :)
Hunger.Boldness.Courage.STRONG 120!

2009-02-23T05:02:00.000-08:00

Hi hi,
havnt been posting for a longlonglong long while! haha
but its okay! anw, juz had the first part of our vision service!!!! it was really great an powerful!
even the video done was really great!!!! u all muz really watch! Pastor's message was really powerful and impactful too!!!!
Im no longer gonna be a satisfied or "just enough" person but keep on persueing for more!!!! :)
Enjoy the video! You was definately be touched and captivated! :)

2008-07-20T06:33:00.000-07:00

Went to city link to have lunch wif Leslie peiqi donovan and jienli... then after that jienli suggested that we go to penisula and leslie took it very seriously and in the end, we followed leslie who claims that he has a good sense of direction and took a long time before we cld reach... haha... then after that jienli and leslie bought shirts and then went to eat ice cream, peiqi was super pissed off by someone...

We then went to w8 wif Donovan for 1e clique and after that me peiqi jienli and leslie went to fareast to shop...and leslie that rich kid bought another bermudas..

Leslie left after that and i suggested that we go to coffee bean to have a dronk at amk hub and they agreed! So me and jienli and peiqi went and we tok abt alotalot alot of things and spent a long time there! haha and peiqi was really excited abt 'somebodys' return on mon! i shall not sae much abt it! haha.. PHOTOs time!!!! =))

haha... thats all, im lazy and gg to do wrk ler, other photos shld be able to found on peiqi's blog.. thats all for now! :)

2008-07-14T05:28:00.000-07:00

Hello!
here to post again! haha.. Anw, went to watch movie wif leslie, kenneth, don and other ppl... haha... Hellboy was quite a nice movie anw... ahaahaha... b4 we watched movie, went arcade to play and then went shopping... And the rich kid leslie bought a new urban male shirt for $70! lol!
But was fun 2dae, then don joined us at arnd 2.30pm and we went to eat bens and jerry... haha...
Actually Me, leslie and kenneth wanted to take cabal car to sentosa and cycle de, but the movie ended at arnd 6pm, so we didnt went... but we went to have dinner at Carl's Jr.... haha... nice! then took a train home!!!! =)) Enjoy the Pics!!!!! :)

in the mrt reflection at marina.. haha

Leslie thought of something else while looking at it.. lol

Mr dony pie! =))

Lau jian ming...

He was trying to take photos of us secretly...

emo kid... (haha)

he looks serious.... (only when in arcade, hahahah)

Jien Li..
Look at leslie's butt! hanging smthing... lol

2008-05-26T02:33:00.000-07:00

hello!!!

haha... today had o-levels chinese.. was ok la, not that difficult, really hope to get A1!!! anyway, i wanna thanks all those that send me words of encouragements- Donovan, Zhan, Xue Mei, Yan Qing, Marcus Tan, winnie and rebecca! =))
Yes, really thank u guys for all of it! haha..

And i went for red rain concert ytd!!! It was really great!!!! haha... the sound and lighting was super fantastic man , at Heart of God church... I have gt a few pictures, haha maybe u all can take a look at them! haha.. and i even had them to sign on my ticket!!!!! =)) and guess wad! when we jump up and dwn during the concert, even the lightings and the projector on the ceiling were vibrating! lol.... but was a really great concert!!! haha... ok gtg... cya, will post again! haha =))

2008-05-23T07:36:00.000-07:00

hey all!

haha havnt been posting for quite a few days ler... lol.. anw, today in sku, was late then after that gt very angry! i dun wanna tok abt that anymore... waste me blog space, not worthy to tok abt it on my blog... Anw, the cyber wellness course was quite interesting, haha, had lots of fun and played charades and murderers.. jien li was super active and guess quite some of the answers correctly.. haha... we also had math test today! was super hard la! lol... but i think i shld be able to pass.. =X after sku stayed back then go find chen rongli lao shi to ask her abt chi things and then stayed in sku see ppl play soccer and basketball... i gt play a bit also.. haha.. abit!...

Anw, that day we went to the old folks home... actually we planned games for the old ppl to play 1 la... then the person ther dun allow... in the end got to sing for them and perform only.. bt quite fun, we sang some old old songs... haha... we even took class photos!!!!! take a look!!!! haha..

2008-05-18T06:00:00.000-07:00

Hi!
Here to blog again... today was a really boring day, had tution as normal..
And i missed Prayer meeting again!!!! Oh man!
I was thinking during my break on h0w good will it be if i was at the prayer meeting!
Really been missing out church for some time.. haiz.. =(
Miss everyoine in church! but nvm, gt sentosa outing 2moro!!! =))
Can see everyone again! anw, thanks all of u guys for msging me to care abt me when i was sick!
Thanks alot, really!!!!=)) really appreciate it!
Ok.. thats all, gtg bye!!!!

2008-05-17T04:38:00.000-07:00

Hi all.
I really have not been posting for such a long time... ha ha I am here to revive my blog... Anw, went for Dining Etiquette ytd, 16 may '08.. haha It was not bad although it was at grassroot club, lol.Clement and Gim Hwa was like laughing at my red tie that i was gonna wear... lol But i think i looked nice in it.. hahh. I also took alot of photos too! The food was not that nice.. and the mashed potato was like a chunk of salt instead of what it should taste like-super salty la! lol but i tink that the cheesecake was nice.. Actually wanted the class to take class photo together 1, but some of them went home quite early so in the end never take.. But nvm, still gt next time 1.. Feeling really sick now.. having fever-38.5 degree Celsius! lol Ok, that shld be all i got to sae! bye guys! enjoy some of the pics that i have taken during DE!=))

2007-12-11T05:00:00.000-08:00

hihi,
have not been updating for sososososososo long time ler
haha...
LTC is coming up soon, from the 14 to 17 dec. haha so excited for it lah. =)
Anw, really had a fun time 2dae wif ms Seh and other inter 1s.
Me, jason, chunkiat, brennan, esaint, fatin, xitong, julia, xuanliang and not forgetting ms seh.
haha... Ms seh treat us to Fish & Co. So good la, i tink its more than a $100.
But really la. Ms Seh is really very good la, although she is leaving for China for about 2 yrs, im sure that we will also remember her as both a good teacher and a good CO =)
Really sad that she is leaving... But im glad that we have had a farewell dinner for her and hope ms seh will like the gift that we gave to her. =)
Ok... GTG ler CYA and take care!!!! =))

2007-10-25T05:15:00.000-07:00

Sian ah!!!!! Fcuk up!
I juz realised that she is not as good as i tot she is... like wad others had said!
She is as biased! I really hate her man!
Give all the jobs to others... Wad about mi? Have she 4gotten about mi?!
Fine la... since she treats mi like tis! I shall not bother anymore!
And quite a lot of things happen tis few daes... Im feeling rather dwn these daes... i really wan a fren whom i can really confide all my troubles to... Are what i am doing correct or should i stop being so commited in the things that i do? People dun even see my effort and appreciate them... DO THEY REALLY NOTICE WHAT I AM DOING?! now i noe that no matter hw much effort i put in, wad they see is only hu they or (she) likes and not any other things!
As i do quiet time, he is the only 1 that i can really speak my troubles to...
No other ppl i tink will care to listen to mi! How sad!
~FAVOURTISM~
Is that what they are only capable of? Do they even noe hus working behind the scene?
Hu shld i speak my troubles to other than god?
Who will ever understand mi enough n i can trust enough to confide in?
2dae got CG meeting... to me, church is the only place where i feel like a home other than my own! its really a great place...
I really hope that god will give mi a true fren soon that i can really share my burden wif...

2007-08-04T05:32:00.000-07:00

wah... wth la
tis few daes damn fcuked up ah..
lets tok about yesterdae's trng..
on the wae back, on the bus, the B1s and B2s are supposed to keep quiet then they kept playing a fool then also very the noisy la.
i told them to keep quiet then they also like a while then start to make niose again..
i really feel lik diaming them ah...
then an ass hole rite, i dunwanna mention hu but not frm I1s, when reach sku, he came out frm council room and "wadever" mi!
wth la, he was also plaeing and joking wif the inter1s la.. fcuker leh he...
do wrong thing still wadever mi... also not very young... wth.
Actually i quite respected him 1.. since then, i seriously nid to consider whether is he worthy of my respect anot!
Todae got Phs DSA... haha
go quite smmothly...
tats all, bb

2007-07-13T07:40:00.000-07:00

hihi, its really been a veryvery long tym since i last blog...
more than a month i tink... yup... l
ast sunday was the ncc dae parade!
the actual one... n i survived the whole parade which was about 1 hour... not bad ya...
haha.. took a few photos wif my other unit frens and also sea goh frens..
haha will be posting some up too...
honours nite...
it was realy quite cool during honours nite as i got to wear the blazer...
it was ny first tym wearing it n i really feel very honoured man...
we came earlier to get everting ready for tat dae and i tink everyting went smoothly...
i received my award wearing my blazer up on stage...
it was actually a $10 gift voucher... n there was a surprise tat even we councillers do not noe about it... and it was the sparkling juice...
it was very nice when i tasted it... marvellous...
haha we also took some photos after the whole ting...
And guess wad! the dae tat i have always been waiting for...
The 6th student council investiture!!!!!
it was a total success although we had 30 skus that came!!!!
i am very proud when i walked into the hall and i believe every counciller is!
Cool man... and i wanna thank the sec 4s for the canopy...
it was really marvellous... and all the tings that u help and assist us in... really a big thank u to u sec4s...hahas, xDxDxDxD

Jin Shi and me... smiling widely...haha Me and Clement Me and Alistair Proud to be a counciller!!!!!!!xD
the 'thorn' among the roses...
ncc cum council.. haha quite blur though..
haha... Franko looks quite old... Me and Shao Hwee

Me and Wei Xian
Me and mr super numery...
mitchell and his sunkist orange...lol

2007-05-11T00:54:00.000-07:00

hihi, im here posting again...
n my blogs not rotting k?
haha i dunno? juz feel very lazy nowadaes
maybe i may be posting again 2moro or something... bb for now...

2007-04-17T02:21:00.000-07:00

hihi... im here posting again!:)
haiz... im the apood for 2moro's trng... hope nothing goes wrong...
brennens the pood... i believe that we can do a good job... so jia you bah!
2dae got geog test... got quite a few qtns that needed to elaborate more... lol...
2dae went for fps and we did progressed on and not stucked at the 16 probs anymore...
tat show that we are making progress in our work! which is good... although we are abit behind tym, i tink we will be able to complete in tym and do as well as other groups! haha...
nhowadaes rarely can post as busy wif fps and i did fps til 2 am in the morning yesterdae...! so tired tis morning la! but nvm... we manage to move on and all the effort by the group was all worth it... mid year exams coming soon... stressed out man... thats all... gtg do work ler!
bb... cya... happy reading my blog!:)

2007-04-14T07:12:00.000-07:00

hihi... its been quite a long tym since im blogging... but nvm...
quite busy tis few daes... got lots of test going on...
fridaes trng started later than usual as we assembled started late and got scolded by mr tan...
worse of all, the pood got higher mt and the apood got punished and had to stay backkk...
i was forced to take the parade and then the pood came back when i was about to start the parade... wadever la... nvm...
anywae, 2dae went to campus superstar audition with choon keat... met him, edwin, xl and kelvin at about 10.45am to go there and register wif choon keat...
guess wad? choon keat actually got in!!!! way to go man choon keat... jia you bah! u hav made it into the top 20s ler... i have faith in u tat u will surely get into atleast the top 10... dun worry man... we will support u all the wae!
the audition was open to public at tpy hdb hub... lots of ppl were there supporting their shoolmates... there were lots of ppl supporting choon keat from our sku too... me, nic, xl, jiacai, edwin, belicia and lots more... when he went onto the stage, we all cheered for him... he sang very well and the judges said that he has a unique voice... they even complimented himm...
haha... i bet he will be the joy of our sku... jia you bah!
okae,,, tats all 4 now... gtg ler... bb!:)

2007-04-05T21:03:00.000-07:00

haha...jialing ah lialing... dun worry lah...
i will be changing blog skin soon... i hope... if i got the tym!
exams coming soon and got lots to study and especially physics...
i dun quite understand lots of tings man
im dead... arhhh... nxt week got abt 5 test... lol stressed out lah...
ltr im going out wif yanyi, chris , tbt, xiaomin and swee koon to J8 to hav dinner n movie... there may be more ppl going too... hope it will be fun!
nowadaes trngings not I1s plan ler... sad... but, we r gg try to fight 4 our rights to plan...
1 ting tat makes mi so happy... ncc won the gold unit award!!!!
its all thanks to all our hard work and effort, the csm, asm, all the sgts and of course not 4getting all the cadets... wae to go phs ncc sea..lol
gtg ler..bb...=)

2007-04-01T04:15:00.000-07:00

haha... 2daes april fools dae...
cracked sm jokes on my fren and we were all saeing tat each other's good points... which was actually not true... as... it was april fools 2dae... quite lame although...
and sm1 timid and had no guts to admit hu tat person is wen he or she tagged mi... lol... haiz! nvm!!!!
tis week got quite a few test coming up, geog, amath and chi... might even hav more... sianz...
gt to study lik amd ah!
i really hate tis guy man... i shall not sae hu he is... but i can describe him n u all guess..
a looter... shout at small tings... wanna be the leader... and haolian... wadev he is, im gg to try to stay awae from him...
tats all for now... gtg study ler! happy reading and happy april fools dae...
LOL=)

2007-03-31T01:32:00.000-07:00

hihi
hah! yesterdae went for the sec1s' affirmation cerpmony...
I1s were the supporting contingent... but still quite fun tough...
actually, the parade was supposed to be the 1st item for the affirmation ceromony between ccks n phs... but it rained wen the parade was about to start...
den, the sec1s went to the wow room to watch a show or wadev... i was not der sooo, i was not clear! however, the rain stopped after a while and we continied with the parade after the sec1s and the GOH and the teachers had their snacks... all of the I1s were very hungry as we didnt had our lunch...
then, we went on wif the parade... after the parade, we were then given the permission to eat... sounds nice rite? but it is juz to finish up the leftovers... its okae cause at least we get to eat!!!!
we only had curry puff as the rest lik hotdogs hav all been finished!
the curry puff was quite nice however and it was still hot wen we started eating...
Actually, the parade was quite cock up yesterdae... the markings were not taken before fri and the csm and asm were pumped... but i noe ppl do make mistakes even mi...
JIAYOU BAH CSM, ASM...
Choon Keat... i noe u could get into the top 30 of campus superstar... n u did... keep on gg and get at least into the top 10... jiayou bah!!!!
2dae went wif choon keat to css but went to gregs hse to celebrate his bdae... happy bdae greg...
i tink tats all 4 nowwww....
happy reading...

2007-03-29T05:44:00.000-07:00

hihi... im blogging todae... haha
got a childish spammer in my blog but nvm...
since he or she is soooooooo damn childish, we shall ignore him...
2moros the sec 1s big dae!!! their affirmation ceromony...
but,,, its in sku... sad as last tym it was in the s'pore indoor stadium for us,... it was such a magnificiant 1 la... with abseilling and all other performances like flying of controlled airplanes...
soooo fun la lol... sianz...
tats all for now... gtg ler...
bb!!!!:)

2007-03-25T03:43:00.001-07:00

hihi... havnt been posting for the past few daes... not free... got activities almost every dae and lots of hw!
lol, nvm... nowadaes got no ncc already... sianz... actually, it may be even beta... noo nid to c some ppl...
oya yesterdaes ake was tough... kayaking from sambawang sae trng cantre to seletar and all the wae bck and continued straight awae to causeway agin n bck... it was tough especially wif my partner, keep saeing tat she wanna giv up and stopping once every while n i had to kayak all by myself... i was soooo pissed man... n she show attitude to mi! wad the hell la... i should be the one thats angry lor...
nvm dun tok about it ler... anywae, im gg kayak wif johnathan during mini ex... haha... all the wae man!!!!XD
tok wif mitch on the phone for a while and found out lots of interesting tings about us, I1s...
tat may be all for now... good bye and hav a nice dae...
happy reading...XDXDXDXD

2007-03-12T22:32:00.000-07:00

hihi all... i came bck frm my, ophir... it was sooo tough...
but after we reach the peak, it was worth it all the hard work...
after ther trip up and down, we actually stayed in the resort... it was quite cool ya?
and i also found a serious problem in our inter 1 platoon... they split themselves into two groups... the so called coporals in probations and the so called 'elites' who always comes 4 trngs... what the hell r they thinking man.. during the trip, i tried to mix with the so called probations... but they was like thinking that we were juz showing off... maybe they are thinking too much
I am feeling soooooo sad. where is the unity that we had in sec 1? where?where? where? i hav been trying to find it... how can i help to get our platoon back into unity without any more outcasting? they are outcasting some of the platoon mates... y is this happening? power struggle? y?y?y? is power really that important? I really hate it man... i used to like ncc very much and since i joined hpt, i really feel a strong sense of passion 4 both ncc n hpt... now? wads happening? y m i feeling safe n a sense of belonging only to hpt? y isit so? hpt is a group of ppl that is easy going n fun to be with. we r juz lik a big family. ncc used to be like tis... unity, fun and a big family... but now? i cant imagine it man... i really dun feel like going to ncc... y? i also dunno... maybe? but i feel that i should go on... is tis a challenge? y is it like tis? how i wish there was no rank system in ncc...but its almost impossible!!!!i may be crying,y? i may feel disheartened,y?
i believe there are a few people that are very united in ncc... but they are only united in their own groups and outcasting others... In ncc PPL ARE RANK ACCORDING TO POPULARITY... tis is wad some told mi... y? is it because they are the best cadets? or isit because they are better looking than the others? i dunno? wad r they actually tinking of?i also dunno?
some idiots in ncc are also passing down bad rumors about ppl... n... even if the so called 'probations' do mix with some of the so called 'elites'... it was only SOME of it not all... wad can be done to help us? plzplzplz... help!!!!!!!!!!!!!i hope i hope i really hope... as day pass by, im feeling more n more relunctant to go 4 ncc................-_-,,,,

2007-02-16T22:07:00.000-08:00

haha ty guyz for tagging mi...lol
anywae my chem was quite a good shot...35.5/40 haha... hope i will do well in more papers...
havnt got bck my chinese paper all thnx to the chinese teacher. actually supposed to get bck 1... on fri! but she sae i nv go class bcause of total defence n dun wanna gimme bck the paper......wad an... nvm!!!! haiz... hope i will score well.
our class eng only got 5 ppl tat pass!!!!!!!!!!! will i pass? hope soooooooooooo=(
i also wanna ty alll tat gave mi those valentine dae giftsss, all of tat was soooo good n special...tytytytty=)
tats all for now.... gtg ler! happy chinese new year every1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-02-12T19:59:00.000-08:00

haha... 2moros valentine dae... sry but i dont hav the tym to go out wif u... maybe on fri when i dun hav any trngs... im so sry... u noe...plz 4giv mi...
haiz actually, i was the pood for tis week but due to cny, my duty was cancelled n brought to term two1!!!! n we gt hav rehersals for the total defence!!! sianzzzzzzzhope everyting will go smoothly on the dae so tat our effort will be worth it...
Any wae, didnt hav the tym to post these few daes as i was quite busy n common test is on... yay... my maths got 31/40... hope its good enough... the history paper was dammed hard man!!!! more than half of the class failed. luckily, i passed wif 13/23... lol, everyone jiayou!!!!!!
o ya... last week was my cousins wedding n i wish him hav happy tyms wif ur new wedded wife... lol, i hope tat u will quikly giv birth to a cute little baby soon... haha!!!!
i wish all of u guys out der a very happy valentines dae in advance n especially to u... u noe hu?...

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2007-01-22T03:50:00.000-08:00

haha... sianz the protection period for us inter 1s will be soon over.. nxt week!!!! i hope that nth will go wrong n our platoon strenght can be very regularly 17 corporals that was being promoted at the camp at least for every training n maybe more will come n that will be the best man!!!! i truely hope tis happens... today, went to ncc, supposed to hav debrief by irvin but strenght was tooooo little so only did the backbone for fri training and he asked mi to complete the total defence games and hand it up to him 2moro!!!! shit!!!! i only rmb now... gtg ler tat will be all for now bbbbbbb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=)